Talon Dasher

I didn't know then it would hurt like this but I think
The older I get
Maybe I'll get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this ( ... )

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, ( skeletons )

Please ignore all posts below this one. I do not have the heart to delete the posts in this journal. Thank you <3

So...who else is tried of hearing about Oprah? She's retiring...big whoop? Sorry...figured i'd start with something a little negative. Don't want people reading this a throwing up with all the postive goodness. So what is new in the life of Talon? Why am I talking in third person? Eehh.

Well...ill start at the beginng. Jackson finally talked me into buyinh a house. He was tired of having to run across the street at our apartment to play at the park. Now he just goes in the backyard. Its a two story older updated home. Three bedrooms, 2.5 baths with a master bedroom with a walk in closet. Star really loves that. Oh yeah....Star moved in with us too. I have to say I really didn't like driving across town to her apartment and leaving jackson alone wasn't an opinion unless I had a babysitter.

My baby brother is in town. Kind of have mixed feelings about this. Not sure why he is here...he said the movie he's working on wrapped up. Just really hope he wasn't fired. Dad would have a field day with that. Like cole would care though. He pretty much as the same relationship with me as I do now. Nonexist.

Let's see...what else is new? Mmmm? You know what I can't think of anything. I'm drawing a completely blank. I know there's something...I just can't think of it...

Oh yeah! Jackson asked Star to marry us. I get her a dog for mother's day and the little brat upstages me with a proposal. Psh! I see how it is.

We actually just got back from Texas meeting her family and telling them the news. Which we got news ourselves. Her aunt has breast cancer and although I'm not good with things to say in that situation...I'm not leaving her side for a moment of it all. We are actually planning for a July wedding so her aunt can be there. Not sure how far the cancer is...but her aunt means a lot to her. And she means a lot to me.

So...now on to tell my parents...cole...? Hold my hand? ;-)

Well, it feels like we're living from pay check to check
And we wake up wondering what might happen next
Yeah, someitmes it feels like we won't make it through
But the hard times pass
Like the good ones do
Baby wrap your fingers and
Hold on tight
I'll be right here beside you tonight
Baby climb up here
Watch the city glow
Let's make a wish on the fireworks below
We're making moments that we won't forget
And feeling ones that haven't happened yet

Whoa
Don't be afraid
We can't forget these are the days

Crazy girl, don’t you know that I love you?
And I wouldn’t dream of goin’ nowhere
Silly woman, come here, let me hold you
Have I told you lately? I love you like crazy, girl

Wouldn’t miss a single day I’d probably just fade away
Without you, I’d lose my mind
Before you ever came along I was livin’ life all wrong
Smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine

She used to be the person of my dreams
And now she's just a a demon of my nightmares
I know this s*** ain't what it seems
Hey, hey you ain't leavin', i'll be right here
Shorty just rescue me, I know you especially
The way I always felt with you
Thinking that true telepathy
Like the age and their games
We used to be blinding
Who would have thought that when you left
The right would become the wrong thing

I know, I'm finding it hard to breathe
And I've been drowning in my own sleep
I feel, A hate crashing over me
So rescue me
So rescue me

Life has been crazy lately. I honestly don't know how I'm keeping up with everything. Jackson being the klutz that he is went and jumped off the back of the couch the other day. Why...? Because he saw it on tv. Really...? What kind of shows are they showing now-a-days? He said it was a cartoon and wouldn't give me the name of it. Little brat. We ended up at the ER that night for a couple of hours. Seriously not my ideal night. He didn't break his arm however, he only over strained a muscle. Thank God. He was given a temp. brace and sent home. I swear that boy is way too much like me. My father would have killed me if I had done that, he would have went on and on about how I ruined my baseball career. But when didn't he go on and on about that?

Speaking of my family, I talked to my mother the other day. She wents to fly down to Charlotte to see Jackson and me. She can tell how happy I am over the phone and wants to know the reason why. Of course, my father wouldn't be coming. That bastard hasn't said more then 5 words to me since Jackson was born. She'd of course be bringing my sisters though. I have to admit I am missing them. Their bickering back and forth amuses me to no end.

Tonight is my 'sleep over' with Star. She's finally coming over and I get to cook for her. Yes...I cook. Come on...I own a resturant I DO know my way around a kitchen. I am a pretty good cook too if I say so myself. But I'm really excited for this night, she hasn't seen mine and Jackson's place. Speaking of Jackson, he's spending time with my eldest siser. Thank god for her, I would hate to explain to him why Star is sleeping over. He is not ready for that kind of talk. I'm trying to shield him away from the world!

Speaking of which...there is a knock. That must be her. MY Star...my shining Star.

She's my everything, like a morning girl
She's my angel, up above my world
She's the only one who understands me
That's why I call her my new fan league

She's the only one that I want by my side
She's the only one that I believe can save my life
She makes me want to be a better man, oh why
She's higher than the sky, the suns and the moon

She's like a star, like a star, like a star

I know a bar out in Mars
Where they driving spaceships instead of cars
Cop a Prada spacesuit about the stars
Getting stupid ass straight out the jar
Pockets on Shrek, Rockets on deck
Tell me what’s next, alien sex
I’ma disrobe you, than I’mma probe you
See I abducted you, so I tell ya what to do
I tell ya what to do, what to do, what to do

( Been there, done that, messed around I’m having fun don’t put me down, I’ll never let you sweep me off my feet, I won’t let you in again, the messages I’ve tried to send, my informations’ just not going in, burnin’ bridges shore to shore. )

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